Oh, the things you'll do...

So, last night, i officially became a little crazy. i have read more than one article about how babies that are born into the NICU are given a blanket or toy of some type that the mother sleeps with to get her scent on it. This makes perfect sense to me, and i thought, hey, why not do that for my baby, NICU or not? so, last night, i slept with this little blankie that has a duck head on it that i bought when i was about 12 weeks along. and while i do think it will be nice for baby to have something that smells like me, i do also realize that i am a few days away from being half way there - which means i have 20 weeks left, or five months! can you even imagine what that little duck is going to be like if i sleep with it every night for the next five months? it will need to be washed, that's for sure, and then it will smell like detergent instead of me. i just can't let go of the idea, though. i actually really enjoyed sleeping with the little duckie. i felt like i had my baby there with me. obviously, the kid has been right there, safely tucked away into my belly the whole time, but having something physical to hold on to, made it a little more real. so, i'll probably keep doing it. and i'll wash it and maybe even throw it out and get a new one. but i like it. it makes me feel like a mother and like i'm doing something for the little one other than eat, sleep and get fat.